Devious Journal Entry

Show Me Your Moves: MOON
by *DeepFade on deviantART

Here is the picture I was talking about Satoshi. I hope you like it! :D

Feeling... Not So Great...
So... I'm going to be venting in the hopes that it will help me out. Now call me crazy but for some reason my mood did a 360 after school ended. The day started out alright. The only exception I had was when I knew I would have to put a gallon of gas in the car at the end of the day. Either way it started to get really windy and rained a decent amount which got me upset cause I was cold, but I didn't think much of it. My first class was enjoyable. I laughed and worked with a partner on the assignment in class. We have to do another assignment outside of class which kind of made me think: Blarg, why this weekened? So I'll most likely be doing it on Sunday or Monday. After class I tried to meet up with Satoshi. But she had work to do and I didn't want to bother her. So I went to my class and reread the section we had to read. It helped me understand it a bit better, but not that much. My second class was fun because we got to talk about Dream-work. I wish I could have shared my insight about the Nightmare Inspector. One of the nightmares was a perfect example of something we talked about in class, but I decided to keep my mouth shut. The best part was while we were waiting for class to start I was playing Pokemon and the girl who sits next to me asked what I was playing. When I showed it to her she was like "Awesome Pokemon!" And the girl behind her asked which version. I told her SoulSilver and she was like "I'm playing that one too." Hehe, so that was fun. After class I headed to the car. I knew I had to get gas which slowed down my time of getting home. It was ungly out and I just wanted to go home. But traffic was stupid and I started getting more upset. As soon as I got home my dad asked if I had gotten something to eat. And I knew it was because there was nothing at home. So I decided to go out to eat. I was done. I don't know why, but I needed some time to myself. I was frustrated and annoyed. So I get home and things just seem to calm down a bit. But little things began to annoy me. I don't know why, but they just did. So I decided not to finish the rest of my essay and leave it for tomorrow. I'm going to just relax and do what I want to do for tonight, because I wouldn't be able to focus and just keep getting upset. Anyway I'm out. I need to do something else. If your confused don't hesitate to ask questions. It's been a long day.

Writer's Block: The name game
My username is a mix of two important functions and an old role play story I started with my best friend. My favorite sense is sight. And if I took that away I would be blind. I believe communication is imporant so I thought if that disappeared I would be mute. When I thought about putting those together I got blindmute, but that didn't seem right so I added a the. Lol, as far as the story goes, I wrote a story with my best friend about two twin sisters. It was based off of a dream I had planned and a story about celestial goddesses. The sisters could not communicate because one was blind and the other could no speak. Hence the name theblindmute. However, if I had the chance of changing it to something else I guess it would either be CharredWings or BottledMemories.

Writer's Block: Living the dream
My ultimate dream job is to be a famous author. I think I'll be able to write at least one book, in my life time, but I don't think I'll ever be a famous author per say.

Writer's Block: Mind reader
In three words, describe what's currently running through your mind.


Finished Finals
Hey everyone,

I finally finished my finals! I can totally start doing things for myself now. Well... sort of. LOL. Either way, I went to the bookstore to see how much the bookstore is buying it back for, and I found out it was more money than I was selling it to my friend for. But I mean like double! So, I'm going to tell them the price the bookstore is buying it back for to see if she can get me the money. If not, I'm going to sell it back. Money is real tight... I don't want to be cheated out of the money I would have normally got it for. So... now I'm waiting for my brother to finish his exam so that we can go home. I'm kind of anxious, because I wanted to sell the book, but I should at least give my friend the chance to come up with the money. So... *sigh* looks like I'll be going to school tomorrow when I didn't even have to. D:

Oh well, it's been fun sharing my thoughts. It really relaxes me. Thanks for listening! <3

Why do I bother helping people? What does it ever accomplish? When has it ever benefited me? It hurts to sit there and wonder. It pains me to feel like my help is being rejected. I sit here staring at a blank page. Feeling like I need to let it all out. Scream at the top of my lungs. Remembering what you’ve said. My head spins as I start to get dizzy; my insides twisting and curling in disgust. A see a knife nearly out of reach and look out a window dripping with tears for the clouds above. I run the knife against my skin my hand crashing into the glass. I try to escape toward the freedom I seek. Just beyond those clouds as I wish to be released. I hope and pray this pain will subside, but once again you remind me. That I am merely human and the world is not perfect. People hurt others; they cry and bleed. Beg and plea. Behind this glass I stay grounded to a world I do not wish to live in. A burning sensation stings my chest and I realize now what I have done. I have cried. I have bled. I am what I am. I feel this way and understand now why I continued to sit here and wait. Why I bother trying to help. Why I put myself through these tests. It’s so that nobody else has to feel the pain I feel. It’s so they don’t accuse me of not caring. It’s so they see a different side of me. The better side of me, the one hiding the same feelings they hide. The power of love which I treasure most is the hand I use to reach out to others. It may be mean, it may hurt you. I may just be putting salt in that wound, but I will be here to face the truth. To hope you see through the words and illusions. The real me; human just like you.

Pokémon Again

Hey everyone, I know this may sound pretty stupid, but I wanted to share it with you anyway. I’ve been getting inspired lately even though I’m still feeling a little anxious. I guess it’s true… it really does come to you when you least expect it. So I have to get it down before I loose interest. Basically I started enjoying Pokémon again. I got really into it and even made a whole new line up. This is probably the first time I actually gave personalities to my Pokémon, so I want you to let me know what you think. Constructive criticism would be most appreciated. Thank you, please. :]


Starting out:

1st: Eevee ♂

2nd: Pidgey ♀

3rd: Ralts ♂

4th: Cherrim ♀

5th: Shelder ♀

6th: Pikachu ♂


















Eevee – had to evolve him into a Jolteon in order to save his life. Jolteon is very quick to jump into a situation. He is very protective of Luchia and very judgmental of other trainers. Jolteon doesn’t like to be touched by others but enjoys the time he gets to spend relaxing along side his master. Jolteon is usually calm and collected, but the moment he senses danger he rises to the challenge.


Pidgey – is cheerful and carefree. She enjoys stretching her wings now and again. Once she evolves into a Pidgeotto she learns to get along with the other Pokémon and enjoys their company. She still enjoys stretching her wings. As a Pidgeot she becomes more reserved and refined. Even the smallest of things don’t bother her. Stretching her wings gives her the sense of feeling beautiful. Luchia mostly trains her for the contests.


Ralts – has the notion that he needs to look out for everyone. Though the simplest of things he does are the greatest; like stepping in front of the other Pokémon when he senses danger. As a Ralts he was a little shy, but evolves into a Kirlia after protecting Cherrim from an attack. He becomes a lot more skilled as a fighter and evolves into a Gallade. Gallade is like the silent protector, but still gets embarrassed when Cherrim clings to him.


Cherrim – is very loving and enjoys giving hugs and kisses. She especially loves Ralts/Kirlia/Gallade for saving her. Luchia tends to use Cherrim for contests just like Pidgey/Pidgeotto/Pidgeot. Cherrim enjoys bring cute and loves to show off for Ralts/Kirlia/Gallade in order to get him flustered. She enjoys spending time with the others and tries to get Ralts/Kirlia/Gallade to be more open.


Shelder – as a Shelder she was very clumsy. By making many mistakes she learned from them. Shelder always had a very strong spirit, but sometimes came off as very proud. Once she evolved into a Cloyster her attitude changed. She’s become very outgoing and now prides herself in her looks. Though Luchia feels her skills would be best suited for contests she prefers to battle.


Pikachu – Pikachu is very quirky and loves to have fun. But after witnessing how powerful Jolteon can be he starts to change his attitude. Pikachu wants to become a great Pokémon that Luchia can rely on and begs her to let him evolve. From the fear of having to force Jolteon to evolve Luchia refuses to let that happen again. Pikachu grows jealous, but learns why she is afraid. Once he reassures her that he’s ready she evolves him into a Raichu.

My Brain...
Today I feel like my brain is going to explode. I did my math without a problem, but I know it's only going to get harder from here on out. I'm starting to freak with my other classes. My most dreaded class is Biological Science. It's so hard I want to cry sometimes. Ugh, so today I had to do a few problems I forgot to hand in for my lab, and even though I probably won't get credit for it, I did it anyway. Makes me feel better inside I guess. Anyway. So we're starting Chapter 3, but we still haven't taken the test for 1 & 2 yet. So it's going to be hard for me to study for 1 & 2 while focusing on 3 at the same time. I have yet to study today, but I plan to do so for about an hour or so. It's a little difficult considering it's basically Chemistry back in High School smushed into two chapters. I didn't get a good grade in Chemistry though. A 'C' was my best. I need to make sure I do better in college. So far I've been getting straight A's, but I want that to continue. I'm not sure if it will be possible for Biological Science, but I'll be happy as long as I pass. My other grades will look better on my transcripts anyway.

So that's my school news. Onto other things... well if I had other things. My brain is numb right now. So I guess when I have something better to say I will. See ya! I need to study! D:

Writer's Block: On the (Job) Hunt
What's the hardest part about looking for a new job?
Knowing where to look now-a-days. Nobody is hiring! It's freakin' hard. I'm actually going this Friday to see if I can look for one, so I hope I can get a job.


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